My 2016 New Year's Resolutions!

finally, after a long absence i'm typing here again. work has been taking most of my time because its work. almost everybody works 3/4 of their life away. but oh well, that's not the point for tonight. i want to be greedy this year. very very greedy! yup, my greed's are listed as per below;

1. be a much better mechanical engineer (in terms of my design software and knowledge)
2. get smarter, more efficient and hardworking (but, still wants a work-life balance)
3. burn more excess body fats (resume exercising, practice self-defense arts, to be healthy as well)
4. plan and execute my gundams' mini projects (draft out my ideas, explore for the possible applications, build, modify, spray, assemble, share, display, snap)
5. learn more about cameras and photography (absorb knowledge and practice practice practice!)
6. birthday cards (transform ideas into smiling gifts. i have tons to make inside my head.. need to get them into our real world! )
7. save money!! (for rainy days and overseas' holidays.. and my little new table)
8. spend quality time with family and friends (gather more.. talk more crap.. XD)
9. tidy up my room (looking at changing my study table.. its been more than 8 years... or perhaps, 10 years already.. O_O)
10. bake a really simple, nice tasting and creative cake (improve my baking knowledge and skills)
11. explore a few more recipes with black promfet (i still love the black promfet porridge that i invented.. XP)
12. learn piano! (i want to play my favorite songs and musics)

alright, that's about all.. but i'm sure there's still many more here and there unlisted but will come along in the year ahead.. there is another thing which i will need to decide when that time comes again.. till then, lets not be bothered by it for now..

time is slowly and quickly ticking away.. 
*tick *tick *tick *Dong~!!

Wisdom Removed

sometimes, i really do wonder what's the point of having wisdom teeth when they give you troubles if they don't grow harmonically with the rest.. they'll cost me money, pain, time for healing, drooling for delicious food etc.. why..?? why??? WHY?????

but since they're causing troubles already and before the troubles grew bigger, i had them removed. all at one go. not a hero but just don't want to go through those anesthetics needles twice. what thick and long needles those were! extremely terrifying and intimidating! at least, to me, YES!

a sign of relief for the surgery completed, but i feel a bit sad too to have my fellow wisdom teeth separated from me.. well, they were a part of me after all... and i didn't get to see them to bid farewell.. was too traumatized to do after the 30 mins bloody battle.. 

now, i have no more "wisdom" in me.. ( = _ +).....

reflection

It's been an ancient time since i last update my reflections.. life has never been this much busier ever since i entered the workforce. but then this period of busyness brought me a lot knowledge and experience. knowledge about engineering and design. simple but yet efficient design. experience, how getting along with your fellow colleagues can tell u about handling people. HA! but not much of a problem though. its fun anyway. stress is inevitable i would say.. since wkends are sometimes burnt as well.. but not to the extend that i hate it but rather, i feel a pinch of sadness that i can't help out with my family business..but then again, i'm just gaining experience somewhere else only. all these little experiences will pave my way for success eventually.. :) 

Today's Bitterness is Tomorrow's Sweetness 

my favorite quote now to cheer or motivate myself up when i've got overload or stressed up or whatever shit things weighing me down.. apparently, it works pretty well... hahaha! 

sometimes, i'll still think about aerospace.. thinking am i going back? in a few years time? will the aviation industry hire me still? will the mechanical experience that i'm gaining now be a benefit? what about my knowledge? its after-all off the book's knowledge compared to hands-on.. its not like i'm not enjoying my current work, in fact i do love it! but, sometimes i still can't let go of what i have studied since poly through uni.. is it the letting go part? or is the passion still lingering within.. i need to figure this out somehow.. but most importantly, i want to do something with design! drawings with Solidworks, Catia, ProE etc.. or probably i should straighten out my bloody mind! in fact, i'm a realistic person.. i want to do where my passion lies in but at the same time, i know its much more practical to have a stable income for my future such as retirement.. money is indeed the first factor i will consider.. because without it, i can't do other things i love to, want to, like to... really realistic thinking i have.. another crucial thinking factor would be aerospace knowledge. do i have what it takes to be an aircraft engineer? will my stupid and slow brain be able to absorb the aviation's knowledge? its a big question mark. and here is where Naruto enters the thinking process.. the never giving up spirit! hahaha i really learnt a lot from people who don't exist! hahaha this goes to show how powerful anime world is.. or impact it has on people like me.. otaku perhaps..? 

well, my final goal in life has never changed, and that is to be an Engineer! an Engineer whereby i'm comfortable with the amount of knowledge, experience and achievements that i would gain and receive over the years, and of course, to be contented and yet at the same time never stop learning! the engineering world is really really vast and diverse! there's so much about engineering that i would want to surround myself with! but yet, i feel like my brain can't keep up with what my heart yearns for.. gosh.. that's a little deadly.. hahaha.. now i feel like no matter what field i'm in (including aerospace) within the engineering, as long as it's engineering, i do enjoy whatever it throws at me! :D

yes! that's it, i'm sorted out! hahaha aerospace engineering is fun, but i should still open up to other fields of engineering as well. and if i really do miss the aerospace, i will definitely be back there again! may these few years ahead clear my blurring vision of my passion now as well.. it's so ironic.. but i'm sure the path will be cleared of mist and fogs in time to come.. 

Uzumaki Naruto's Spirit, NEVER GIVE UP!  

2 Months Later

november is coming to an end and i don't think i've have learnt much from what i think i should.. perhaps once again i'm still naive or eager on my progress.. i've forgotten about my original ability on learning things. i'm always a tad slower than others in comprehending everything. especially things that i have the urge to know more about. and that i'm always forgetful. everything can't seems to stick inside my head. and i'm not meticulous enough to everything around me. why am i like that? is it because i'm not suited for this? or that i'm not gonna be trained for this? or, i'm never going to achieve the ability or skills that i want to? i am feeling negative right now looking at the progress of the 22 years... or rather minus-ing the baby years, it's 17 years. 17 years of not being able to remember stuff in the head, not able to grasp the knowledge or environment or whatever that's happening, and not been meticulous enough to the extent of necessity? i do really feel frustrated once in awhile for these inabilities that i have. how in the world can i ever remember to keep these wanted abilities and transform them into reality for myself? perhaps i haven't yearn for them enough to the extent that i would forgo my sleep to gain these power. but these powerful abilities will definitely change my life, my career, my path, my everything. with Better REMEMBER i can COMPREHEND More and to be More METICULOUS as well. i'm not saying that other abilities are unimportant, but these are the current ones which i have been lacking all along. all the 17 years in my life. i should get them and i NEED them! i can't believe that to edit a component and some minor adjustments i need to take more than a few hours to complete it!! i.. i just can't accept it! it's a total waste of time and energy. i need to bloody hell get rid of the negative abilities in me and get the positive ones in! in order for my next phrase of life to begin.. i shall give myself another two months to adapt to this new environment and be satisfied with myself, my work, my attitude, my capability nevertheless. 

YES, I CAN DO IT EVEN IF THE SKIES FALL UPON ME.  

besides the above, i want to remind myself too of the following phrase, it is often left behind by me too.  

strong.brave.humble.

recap

it's been two weeks since my job started.. and it's everyday overtime! EVERYDAYYYY... honestly, this really drained me completely... lack of sleep, miss my comfy bed, proper shower hours, my home-cooked food, gundam leisure, and even my manga time! omg maxxxxx! i could literally go for the army right away with the amount of sleeping hours i got for the past two weeks.. but who am i to complain? i just entered the company at the wrong time aka. project peak hour.. i need time for family friends hobbies too.. work is important.. but so is people and things around me.. hopefully this is just the certain period only when projects or assignments are meeting datelines... but still, i'm not hating my job because of this.. afterall, it's mechanical and engineering too.. something which i want and desire for during the few months of holiday.. the things which i'm attached to design may seems insignificant but then it's still a mechanical design needed and requested by the customers.. with a demand then there is a need for it. a need for it means it's important :) i really hope that i can hone my skills and technical knowledge for this passion and interest of mine besides looking at it as just a simple job waiting for the monthly's salary... i want to excel in this engineering field of where i set my heart and soul into. therefore, i won't allow myself to slack off and letting opportunities to slip through me this time! i'm gonna grab every opportunity i have to maximize my everything! soar to greater heights! hahaha this sounds wonderfully familiar... hahaha

oh and on the other hand, i've decided to take part in next year's gbwc! Gunpla Builder World Cup! let's see how far can i extend my knowledge in all that i have absorbed in the coming months till next September 2015 probably... hahaha i'm happily excited for my model kit's final appearance too... muahahahahaha

till next time...

a Concordian, soar to greater heights!    

Finally, a Mechanical Engineer!

today is sunday and it marks the last day of my first working week. i've officially becomes a Mechanical Engineer! oh yay! :) like a dream comes true for every engineering student to join the engineering industry upon graduation.. now, i can proudly says i'm a MECHANICAL ENGINEER! hahahaha there's a lot to learn about mechanical... but i'm very excited for my first drawing to be done! hahaha let's go mechanical! lets rock and shine the world with sound of "clank cling clank" XD  

people says welcome to the working force and brace yourself.. so by bracing myself i shall work smart and hard! this is the work survival technique that i think i really need >>> work SMART and HARD TOGETHER! its a duo.. <:3

the night on sites' were really an experience for me.. no matter how much i sleep and nap during the day, the working night was still a challenge to my Eyes! can't help but feel sleepy during the 3-4am period.. gosh, i need to prepare more.. perhaps red bull is a better choice for the night shift..? but its a really sweetening drink.. X( oh well,. this is working life.. hahaha

however, work-life balance is really important.. i need time for family, friends, exercises and hobbies too... although i have my passion and interest for work, i still need time for other things too man! can't forget how to live my life while working for my life uh.. :D 

learning my ropes of being a mechanical engineer~