2 Months Later

november is coming to an end and i don't think i've have learnt much from what i think i should.. perhaps once again i'm still naive or eager on my progress.. i've forgotten about my original ability on learning things. i'm always a tad slower than others in comprehending everything. especially things that i have the urge to know more about. and that i'm always forgetful. everything can't seems to stick inside my head. and i'm not meticulous enough to everything around me. why am i like that? is it because i'm not suited for this? or that i'm not gonna be trained for this? or, i'm never going to achieve the ability or skills that i want to? i am feeling negative right now looking at the progress of the 22 years... or rather minus-ing the baby years, it's 17 years. 17 years of not being able to remember stuff in the head, not able to grasp the knowledge or environment or whatever that's happening, and not been meticulous enough to the extent of necessity? i do really feel frustrated once in awhile for these inabilities that i have. how in the world can i ever remember to keep these wanted abilities and transform them into reality for myself? perhaps i haven't yearn for them enough to the extent that i would forgo my sleep to gain these power. but these powerful abilities will definitely change my life, my career, my path, my everything. with Better REMEMBER i can COMPREHEND More and to be More METICULOUS as well. i'm not saying that other abilities are unimportant, but these are the current ones which i have been lacking all along. all the 17 years in my life. i should get them and i NEED them! i can't believe that to edit a component and some minor adjustments i need to take more than a few hours to complete it!! i.. i just can't accept it! it's a total waste of time and energy. i need to bloody hell get rid of the negative abilities in me and get the positive ones in! in order for my next phrase of life to begin.. i shall give myself another two months to adapt to this new environment and be satisfied with myself, my work, my attitude, my capability nevertheless. 

YES, I CAN DO IT EVEN IF THE SKIES FALL UPON ME.  

besides the above, i want to remind myself too of the following phrase, it is often left behind by me too.  

strong.brave.humble.

recap

it's been two weeks since my job started.. and it's everyday overtime! EVERYDAYYYY... honestly, this really drained me completely... lack of sleep, miss my comfy bed, proper shower hours, my home-cooked food, gundam leisure, and even my manga time! omg maxxxxx! i could literally go for the army right away with the amount of sleeping hours i got for the past two weeks.. but who am i to complain? i just entered the company at the wrong time aka. project peak hour.. i need time for family friends hobbies too.. work is important.. but so is people and things around me.. hopefully this is just the certain period only when projects or assignments are meeting datelines... but still, i'm not hating my job because of this.. afterall, it's mechanical and engineering too.. something which i want and desire for during the few months of holiday.. the things which i'm attached to design may seems insignificant but then it's still a mechanical design needed and requested by the customers.. with a demand then there is a need for it. a need for it means it's important :) i really hope that i can hone my skills and technical knowledge for this passion and interest of mine besides looking at it as just a simple job waiting for the monthly's salary... i want to excel in this engineering field of where i set my heart and soul into. therefore, i won't allow myself to slack off and letting opportunities to slip through me this time! i'm gonna grab every opportunity i have to maximize my everything! soar to greater heights! hahaha this sounds wonderfully familiar... hahaha

oh and on the other hand, i've decided to take part in next year's gbwc! Gunpla Builder World Cup! let's see how far can i extend my knowledge in all that i have absorbed in the coming months till next September 2015 probably... hahaha i'm happily excited for my model kit's final appearance too... muahahahahaha

till next time...

a Concordian, soar to greater heights!    

Finally, a Mechanical Engineer!

today is sunday and it marks the last day of my first working week. i've officially becomes a Mechanical Engineer! oh yay! :) like a dream comes true for every engineering student to join the engineering industry upon graduation.. now, i can proudly says i'm a MECHANICAL ENGINEER! hahahaha there's a lot to learn about mechanical... but i'm very excited for my first drawing to be done! hahaha let's go mechanical! lets rock and shine the world with sound of "clank cling clank" XD  

people says welcome to the working force and brace yourself.. so by bracing myself i shall work smart and hard! this is the work survival technique that i think i really need >>> work SMART and HARD TOGETHER! its a duo.. <:3

the night on sites' were really an experience for me.. no matter how much i sleep and nap during the day, the working night was still a challenge to my Eyes! can't help but feel sleepy during the 3-4am period.. gosh, i need to prepare more.. perhaps red bull is a better choice for the night shift..? but its a really sweetening drink.. X( oh well,. this is working life.. hahaha

however, work-life balance is really important.. i need time for family, friends, exercises and hobbies too... although i have my passion and interest for work, i still need time for other things too man! can't forget how to live my life while working for my life uh.. :D 

learning my ropes of being a mechanical engineer~

STAY POSITIVE!

The Power of Fifteen!

the number 15 is so special ! because its a nice number which is often sold out in lottery... LOL XD
& i managed to find a friend whose birthday is the same mine!!! OMGGGG & we're both supposed to be born on 14 jan instead..! but due to our stubborn-ness for the number 15, we decided to be born a little later when the clock stroke passed 12 am of 15 jan! HAHAHA this is so just LIFE!! XD

may the power of fifteen grows stronger as we age :) 

Disney : FROZEN

Songs (3 of the many touching songs): 

Frozen - Let It Go

Do You Want To Build A Snowman?

For the First Time in Forever

I truly enjoyed this movie very much throughout! The way the movie was introduced too was fantastic and different to me! Disney just never fails to provide its audience with awesome songs and musics and scenes :) 

This just very much once again proved that a movie however fabulous the story line is, needs to be coupled with the right songs and musics so as to fully bring the feelings out of it. The scenes of family love or rather sisterhood was really touching to the max..! it doesn't always have to be the love r/s between the male and female leads but sometimes other form of love really brings out something wonderful too. we just never know! never know the boundaries of humans at all.. 

Thank you very much Disney!!! For giving us this wonderful and splendid movie of the winter of year 2013! It'll be lovely to have the 2nd season.. but sometimes we know that perhaps the 1st season is more than enough for us to continue the fantasy/wonders/imagination/reality/etc etc ourselves instead... & for it to stay beautiful the way it started as always... :)  

face your fear with courage from both yourself & people who love you