It's been an ancient time since i last update my reflections.. life has never been this much busier ever since i entered the workforce. but then this period of busyness brought me a lot knowledge and experience. knowledge about engineering and design. simple but yet efficient design. experience, how getting along with your fellow colleagues can tell u about handling people. HA! but not much of a problem though. its fun anyway. stress is inevitable i would say.. since wkends are sometimes burnt as well.. but not to the extend that i hate it but rather, i feel a pinch of sadness that i can't help out with my family business..but then again, i'm just gaining experience somewhere else only. all these little experiences will pave my way for success eventually.. :)
Today's Bitterness is Tomorrow's Sweetness
my favorite quote now to cheer or motivate myself up when i've got overload or stressed up or whatever shit things weighing me down.. apparently, it works pretty well... hahaha!
sometimes, i'll still think about aerospace.. thinking am i going back? in a few years time? will the aviation industry hire me still? will the mechanical experience that i'm gaining now be a benefit? what about my knowledge? its after-all off the book's knowledge compared to hands-on.. its not like i'm not enjoying my current work, in fact i do love it! but, sometimes i still can't let go of what i have studied since poly through uni.. is it the letting go part? or is the passion still lingering within.. i need to figure this out somehow.. but most importantly, i want to do something with design! drawings with Solidworks, Catia, ProE etc.. or probably i should straighten out my bloody mind! in fact, i'm a realistic person.. i want to do where my passion lies in but at the same time, i know its much more practical to have a stable income for my future such as retirement.. money is indeed the first factor i will consider.. because without it, i can't do other things i love to, want to, like to... really realistic thinking i have.. another crucial thinking factor would be aerospace knowledge. do i have what it takes to be an aircraft engineer? will my stupid and slow brain be able to absorb the aviation's knowledge? its a big question mark. and here is where Naruto enters the thinking process.. the never giving up spirit! hahaha i really learnt a lot from people who don't exist! hahaha this goes to show how powerful anime world is.. or impact it has on people like me.. otaku perhaps..?
well, my final goal in life has never changed, and that is to be an Engineer! an Engineer whereby i'm comfortable with the amount of knowledge, experience and achievements that i would gain and receive over the years, and of course, to be contented and yet at the same time never stop learning! the engineering world is really really vast and diverse! there's so much about engineering that i would want to surround myself with! but yet, i feel like my brain can't keep up with what my heart yearns for.. gosh.. that's a little deadly.. hahaha.. now i feel like no matter what field i'm in (including aerospace) within the engineering, as long as it's engineering, i do enjoy whatever it throws at me! :D
yes! that's it, i'm sorted out! hahaha aerospace engineering is fun, but i should still open up to other fields of engineering as well. and if i really do miss the aerospace, i will definitely be back there again! may these few years ahead clear my blurring vision of my passion now as well.. it's so ironic.. but i'm sure the path will be cleared of mist and fogs in time to come..
Uzumaki Naruto's Spirit, NEVER GIVE UP!
